"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of who you are." -Kurt Cobain


Saturday, November 28, 2015

BS-MALL Synthetic Kabuki Makeup Brush Set!

Hey guys! So because I have the bestest boyfriend a girl could have, he bought a brush set of my choice! I'm in desperate need of some new brushes, and I saw this set on Amazon. They looked great, had really good reviews, and had many of the brushes I wanted/needed. Not to mention, they were only $12.45. With shipping and handling, It came to about $17.00. $17.00 for ten Kabuki styled brushes? Yes please! 
I haven't been able to try these out just yet because my health has been not so great. However, I am going to do a review and demo on my Youtube Channel asap! I wanted to go over my first impressions with you guys here first.

 The brushes come in this zip lock bag. On the bag of the bag, there are pictures of each brush and a short description of what they are for. I love that. Inside are the brushes in their plastic holders and a leaflet with more descriptions of each brush and their purpose. I think that's a pretty awesome feature, especially if you're a beginner.

 I didn't take pictures of all the brushes, because I plan on going over each of them in the video. As you can tell, the brushes are very full. They are also so so soft! The bristles are black and white, the barrel is gold, and the wand is black.
The brushes feel really sturdy, and of great quality.
The larger brushes are labeled, which makes it really easy to distinguish which brush is which on the leaflet.

 The smaller brushes are pretty much the same condition as the large ones. The only difference is, the smaller ones aren't labeled. I'm not sure why. It would be nice, but it is in no means a big deal.

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Thursday, November 26, 2015

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! What are you thankful for? I am thankful for my family, my pets, my great boyfriend, my Youtube subscribers, my blog followers, my best friend Natasha, my house, and the fact that I have enough left over chocolate and heavy cream left to make truffles tonight! haha I'm also thankful for Pura D'Or giving me the opportunity to work with them.
Meet one of the pets I am so thankful for in this video:

Thanks for reading and watching my video if you did!

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Monday, November 23, 2015

Spinach and Artichoke Stuffed Garlic Bread!

Spinach and Artichoke Stuffed Garlic Bread!
I made this over the weekend, and it was really good! It makes a great appetizer, or is perfect for a party. It's also very easy to make, and pretty quick too. Serves around 15.

1 large Italian roll.
1 package of cream cheese.
1 can of artichokes.
1 package of frozen spinach.
1/2 package of shredded mozzarella cheese.
1 teaspoon of garlic powder.
A pinch of salt.
1 tablespoon of butter.
1/2 teaspoon of fresh garlic.
1 teaspoon of parsley. 

Combine cream cheese, artichokes, spinach, mozzarella cheese, garlic powder, and salt. Use a mixer to blend together well. Cut roll in half, and hallow out the inside a bit so that you are able to stuff it. Stuff the two halves with the dip. In a small bowl, melt butter. Mix parsley and garlic in the butter. Drizzle over the bread. Wrap the bread in tin foil and bake for 30 minutes at 350 degrees. Let cool, and slice! Enjoy!
I hope you guys enjoyed this recipe.
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Saturday, November 21, 2015

Mascara Makes the World Go Round! (Top 5 Mascaras!)

Hey guys! I did a blog post on my top 15 mascara a few years ago, so I thought it was time to give you a bit of an update. I'm only doing my top five this time around.

5. Essence I Love Extreme Crazy Volume Mascara 

Essence is a brand that is very underrated. They're very cheap, which may be why they are overlooked. Essence has some great deals and I really like their mascaras. This one is my favorite. I love the full brush and wet formula. It can get clumpy, but is very easy to work with. It reminds me a bit of the Benefit's They're real Mascara.

4. Urban Decay Perversion Mascara 
This mascara makes you look like you have a ton of lashes.
It doesn't give you the greatest length, but it does give you a little
something something. Again, the brush is nice and full, which is what I typically like.

3. Benefit's They're Real Mascara 
This mascara gives you big and bold lashes.
It's the mascara that people claim gives you false looking lashes.
I agree with that statement, however, I know it doesn't work for everyone.
Some people have  lot of trouble with clumping, and I guess this is where
everyone's lashes are different comes in. I've never really had a problem with clumping. It usually makes my lashes look really bold! If mascara easily clumps on your lashes, then I'd skip it or just buy the travel size for $10. If you like it, you can get the bigger size once you run out.

2. Laura Geller's GlamLASH Mascara
I love this mascara so much! It just makes your lashes look stunning. It's almost hard to describe how nice they look. It looks like you naturally have very long luxurious lashes. It's really a great mascara and one of the few expensive mascaras I really really love.
The brush is different from what I normally like, but it works amazingly!

1. Sephora Outrageous Curl Mascara
This mascara was created by the mascara gods themselves!
I did a Mascara Monday video on this mascara on my channel. I was so impressed with this mascara. It gives amazing curl.
You don't even need to curl your lashes. It also gives you volume and length! The price is great too! This mascara has quickly become my all time favorite mascara!

Let me know your favorite mascaras, and what you think of my favorites if you tried them!
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Thursday, November 19, 2015

How I Got Rid of Hormonal Acne In 2 Days!

Hey guys! Normally I have dry skin and rarely ever break out. A few months ago I was having a few period problems. I was getting my period too often and in return I had a huge breakout. I never broke out like this before. It started on my chin and went all the way up to my cheek bone. I've been pretty lucky, and never broke out much ever. Family started asking what was wrong with my skin, which is a bit rude...I mean, obviously it's a break out. But it was more than just a break out. It was hormonal acne. My hormones were going crazy. I made my own face scrub to combat the acne, since all of mine were not targeted towards acne.

What you need:

In a small bowl, combine two tablespoons of honey, one and a half teaspoons of sugar, and two drops of vanilla extract. Stir.
Massage the scrub into your skin. Leave the scrub on your face for 15 minutes, wash clean, and pat dry with a clean towel.
I did this morning and night. In two days, my breakout was more than half gone!

Why this works:
Honey is a natural anti-inflammatory agent and and a natural antibiotic. It contains antioxidants, vitamins, and minerals. It also helps keep your skin moisturized. The sugar exfoliates your skin. The Vanilla Extract dries out your pimples.

Hope this helps some of you struggling with breakouts! If you struggle with dry skin, I will be uploading a video on my Youtube Channel next week!

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Monday, November 16, 2015

Quick&Easy Corn and Potato Chowder!

Mmmmmm....chowder! I love chowder, and this is a way you can make it last minute for a quick and delicious meal!

1 tablespoon of butter.
1 small onion.
2 potatoes.
1 can of vegetable stock.
1/2 cup of water.
1 can on corn.
1 cup of milk.
2 1/2 tablespoons of flour.
Salt and pepper.

Chop one small onion. In a small skillet; on medium heat; melt 1 tablespoon of butter. On low heat simmer onions until transparent. Stir occasionally.
Dice potatoes. Boil 1 can of vegetable stock, adding potatoes.  Turn down heat, and let cook until potatoes are tender.About 20-25 minutes.
Add 1/2 cup of water or more stock, if the stock starts to evaporate.
Add corn. Don't drain the corn.
Add a half of cup of milk.
A teaspoon of salt and pepper.
Stir in flour 1 tablespoon at a times. Stir well.
Add the rest of the milk.
And enjoy! :)

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Tuesday, November 10, 2015

My Favorite Fall and Winter Lip Colors!

Hey guys! The weather is changing and is turning cooler finally! Even here in Philadelphia, highs have been in the 70s. It just hasn't felt much like fall, but finally it is getting cooler! Time to break out the hoodies and cozy sweaters! Before you know it, will be breaking out the winter coats and gloves! 
During the summer I don't wear much makeup at all. It's way too hot. Sweat and bod lipstick just isn't my thing. I'd rather be enjoying my time outside  than worrying what state my makeup is in. With that being said, I LOVE a good bold lip color and I love to wear them in the fall and winter. That way I can trust my makeup looks good and I don't need to check to make sure my foundation didn't cake up or disappear all together. Here are a few of my favorite fall and winter shades.
Let's start with the one that's not too bold, but great for fall! e.l.f.'s Barely Bitten.
It's a burnt orange shade and is perfect for fall! e.l.f. mineral lipsticks are AMAZING!
Next is Wet N Wild's Just Garnet! This is an amazing color and is great for the holidays. It's a very classic red, and garnet is my birthstone! January babies unite!
Now we're getting to my top 3! Next on the list is Laura Geller's Chili Red Lipstick. Will just let the picture do all the talking!
Look at how beautiful that color is!
Wet N Wild's Ravin Raisin. My second favorite. It's a deep plumy purple. This color is truly stunning and always gets a ton of compliments when I wear it out.

This is always my go to purple and my second most worn fall/winter lipstick!
My all time favorite lipstick is another from Wet N Wild. Sugar Plum Fairy!

Oh how I love this color! Sugar Plum Fairy is purpley red shade. It is so pigmented and such a beautiful bold color! This is another color that gets a ton of compliments whenever I wear it and you probably can see why. I've been using Wet N Wild lipsticks for years now, and it amazes me how they still are not the most popular. People are always so surprised that such a cheap brand can have such amazing lipsticks. I reach for my Wet N Wild lipsticks more than any other brands I own, including the high end ones.

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Monday, November 9, 2015

Apple and Raisin Bread Pudding

I know my goal was to blog everyday in November, but I had my father's funeral on Saturday. Today's post is the recipe for the bread pudding I made last Thanksgiving. It was a HUGE hit. I may make it again this year, but I'm not sure yet. I was thinking maybe a chocolate and caramel mousse this year. I'm still deciding. Last year everyone loved this so much and it was the first dessert to be dug into and the first to be finished. Here's how you make it:

4 cups of soft cubed bread.
1/4 cup of raisins.
2 cups of peeled and sliced apples.
1 cup of brown sugar.
1 3/4 cups of milk.
1/4 cup of margarine.
1 teaspoon of ground cinnamon.
1/2 teaspoon of vanilla extract.
2 eggs, beaten.

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
Grease 9x13 in pan.
Peel and slice apples. Break bread into cubes.
In a large bowl, combine bread, raisins, and apples.
In a small saucepan over medium heat, combine brown sugar, milk, and margarine. Stir until margarine is melted and pour over bread, raisins, and apples.
In a small bowl, whisk together cinnamon, vanilla extract, and eggs.
Pour the bread mixture into the greased pan, and pour the egg mixture over the bread.
Bake for 40-50 minutes or until the apples are tender and the center is set.


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Thursday, November 5, 2015

The Stranger by the Swings...

Today I found out my dad died...and not the man I grew up calling dad. The man that left me, lied to me more times I can count, wrote me mean letters when he was drunk, and threatened me. My biological dad.
When I was two years old, I was playing at the park. My mom took me. I was playing on the fire truck, which was my favorite.
"That's your dad." My mom said, pointing to a man by the swings. A man I never saw before.
I grew up with my mom and grandparents. My grandfather and I were very close. I called him dad.
I had no idea about the relationship between your mother and father. I just thought you had a mom and a dad, and my grandfather was that dad.
My two year old mind just accepted that this stranger by the swings was my dad, because my mom said so. That was that.
"Can I say hi?"
I walked over to my dad.
"Hi daddy."
"Hi daddy." I said again a little louder.
He looked blankly straight ahead. Like I wasn't even there.
I gave up. Defeated, I walked over to my mom.
"He didn't answer me."
"Maybe he didn't hear you."
We left the park.
I was two, but I knew he heard me. I was two, not stupid.
Years went by and I never thought about the stranger by the swings again. My dad. I continued to be close to my grandfather. Calling him daddy; I still do.
Then one day, my mom handed me the phone.
"It's your dad." She said.
I answered expecting to hear my grandfather's voice on the other end, but instead, it was someone I didn't know. My biological dad...the stranger by the swings.
I talked to him awkwardly. Even at six I was awkward. He told me he missed me. I said I missed him too, even though I really didn't. I couldn't. I never properly met him. After all, he had always been the stranger by the swings. 
A phone call turned into a visit.
It was weird. So weird.
He picked me up, took me to his house, and introduced me to his mom...my grandmother. They showered me with presents which made me feel really uncomfortable. Strangers were giving me presents! They took pictures, and I didn't smile and kept some distance from them. They had to lean in closer.
Thus all the strange feelings, I accepted it. My mom said he was my dad, so he was my dad.
I started to get sad though. I didn't want a new dad. I had one. A great one! My grandfather. I didn't want anyone to replace him. In my six year old head, I could only have one dad and I wanted that dad to be my grandfather.
As if he read my mind, my grandfather talked to me and told me I could still call him dad.
My biological father continued visiting, but honestly, I remember being with my grandmother more than my father. I remember a few times, he supposedly went to the store. Did he? I don't know. He was an alcoholic. Who knows what he was really doing, but most of my memories at his house lie with my grandmother. Still, I grew to kind of like him...but not in a father daughter sort of way. Like that friend your parents have that visit once in a while, You like them, being around them can be fun, but there are other people you enjoy being around more.
I did however, really love my grandmother. She was sweet and kind to me. She felt genuine.
One day, I was waiting for my dad to pick me up. He never came. He never called.
Some years went by, and my grandmother on my mother's side called to tell me she saw my other grandmother's obituary in the newspaper.
The obituary listed she had two grandchildren. I was not one of them.
How nice.
This made me angry...I now knew what they really thought of me.
I can accept my dad had problems. I can accept he couldn't get passed them, but I did not ask to be born. I did not ask for a relationship with any of them. He came to me. I was perfectly happy with my mom, sister, and grandparents. I didn't need anyone else. I loved my grandmother, but did she love me. I'll never know.
Years went by once again, and I was now a Sophomore in high school. My mom found out he was in the hospital. It didn't look good, so she forced me to take a road trip to New Jersey and visit him. Oh the awkwardness...I didn't speak much. He aged a lot. Much more than my mom. Maybe it was all the alcohol. Christopher, which is my dad's name, talked to my mom and grandparents while I stood awkwardly in the corner. I answered the occasional question, and he introduced me to the nurse. We left after what seemed like an eternity. I hadn't heard from him again until about a year later.
My dad, or as I knew him for the longest, the stranger by the swings, put me on his insurance. Honestly, I don't know if it was court ordered, a guilty conscience, or what, but he did. My mom saw this as an opening. She tried to push us together. She made me get on the phone with him and vice versa. Another awkward conversation. He said I love you and I said thank you. I know, I know. That's cold, but I still barely knew him.
He sent me a card with $10 in it for Christmas. The first time I received a Christmas gift from him since I was six. This would be the end of the nice Christopher. I started getting letters that put my mom down and me as well. I got about three or four of these letters, which really pissed me off. My mom stayed. He left. I have a disease called Evans Syndrome and my mom went to the doctors with me, my mom and grandparents waited for me to be sent to the recovery room after my bone marrow biopsy, my grandparents rushed me to the hospital when I almost died from a blood infection, and it was my mom who I woke up to by my hospital bed crying because she wasn't sure if I was going to make it. He had no right to criticize her.
Years would go by again before I heard from him. I was now in my early 20s.
A phone call here...a phone call there...and always a lot of empty promises.   I wished him a Happy Father's Day to be nice. He offered me to move in with him, which I obviously did not accept.Lets see how long you can commit to these phone calls before we even visit each other...well not very long.
Less than a year later, I had problems with all of these insurances. I was no longer on his insurance and needed to prove it, but his insurance wouldn't give me any information because I wasn't him. So my mom called him. He hung up on her, so I called. I thought maybe he would talk to me. WRONG!
He yelled at me, cursed me out, and claimed I was trying to take his money and beach house. Yes, I want a beach house even though I'm allergic to sand...but he probably didn't even know that. He told me I lied about having Evans Sydrome. That there was no such thing...I wish! I yelled and cursed at him back. He threatened to have me jumped. I yelled some more and then hung up. He called over and over again, and in the morning, he was still calling; leaving angry and threatening voicemails. My mom called the police and we filed a report. Thankfully he finally left us alone. My cousins, who I found on Myspace years ago, and their dad (my Uncle) apologized for my father's behavior. They did not have to do that, but they did. It was sweet of them.
After that very crazy incident, I never spoke to Christopher again. I keep in touch with my cousins and occasionally talk to them on Facebook.
Today, I got a text. It was one of my cousins. Not the typical how are you text or Happy Thanksgiving/Merry Christmas text...obviously.
Hey, are you awake text.
I knew.
I knew this day was coming. I already knew before she called me.
"I wish I was calling with better news...Chris passed last night..."
I can't say I'm shocked. I wish I was.
I would be lying if I said I didn't feel a little sad. But I don't feel like I lost my dad. I wish he could have gotten over his addiction. I wish he didn't live such a sad life. I feel bad for my cousins, their dad, and my dad's wife.
Most of my experiences with Christopher were not very pleasant. I can only imagine what it would have been like if he stayed. We did have some good moments and in light of his passing, I guess those are what I should think of from now on. I know he may have been a different person if he wasn't an alcoholic.

If you stayed with me this long, thank you!
If my cousins, Uncle, or Christopher's wife ever read this, I'm truly sorry for your loss.
R.I.P Christopher...Dad.


Wednesday, November 4, 2015

Cheesy Crab Fries!

 Today's recipe is super simple and very delicious! You can go all out and make fries yourself, but I used some frozen ones.

Servings: 2

Frozen or fresh steak fries or potato wedges.
1teaspoon of salt/
1 and a half tablespoon of Old Bay seasoning.
1 tablespoon of chili powder.
1 tablespoon of butter.
1/3 cup of milk.
4 slices of American cheese.
1/3 cup of shredded Mozzarella cheese.
Directions for fries: Preheat oven to whatever the directions of the fries you are using calls for . Aline a baking sheet with enough fries to serve two people. If you want to serve more, you'll need to add more seasoning. Sprinkle a teaspoon of salt on the fries.
Then coat the the fries with 1 and a half tablespoons of Old Bay seasoning. Sprinkle a tablespoon of chili powder over them and place in the oven. Follow the cooking time on the bag. 

Directions for the cheese: When your fries are almost done cooking, start the rue for the cheese. Add a pot to medium heat. Melt a tablespoon of butter. Stir in 1/3 cup of milk. Add in 4 slices of American cheese, stir until it all melts. Add in 1/3 cup of Mozzarella cheese, stir until it all melts. Serve with fries, and enjoy!

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Tuesday, November 3, 2015

$1 Smokey Eyeshadow Tutorial!

Hey guys! I created this look with this $1 mini eyeshadow palette from e.l.f!  The palette I got is in Drama. It has a white matte highlight, a very light shimmery gray, a darker shimmery gray, and a shimmery charcoal color.
The highlight and the light shimmery gray are very very light, but show up well if you use a base and pack it on, which I highly recommend. I used a very beautiful eyeliner as my base. 

 The Starlooks Gem eye pencils are absolutely stunning and the most pigmented eyeliner I have ever owned!
Now, these are kinda pricey at $16, and aren't completely necessary. You can you a base from e.l.f., a silver eyeliner you picked up at the drugstore, or any other affordable base you have.
If you have the money to spend on these liners, I would recommend you try one out! They come in man beautiful colors.
As you can see in the swatch below, it is so pigmented, vibrant, and very shimmery! This color would be an awesome base for any shimmery silver, gray, or blueish gray color you own! Wow, how did this tutorial turn into a Starlooks ad?

 How I created this look:
I applied a little bit of foundation all over my lid, and then primed it. Any primer you like will work fine.
I applied the liner all over my lid and blended it out. In the inner corner, I used the light gray in the right upper corner. As you can see, the eyeliner made it really pop. I then blended the darker gray (lower left) all over my lid, but leaving the inner corner alone. You want to to blend the two grays together but not cover the inner corner with the darker color. Then I used the darkest color in the crease and outter v. I finished the look with winged eyeliner, the white highlight color on my brow bone (which I think looked pretty pigmented due to the foundation and primer), and mascara!

 I hope you liked this tutorial!

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